It's been difficult to re-adjust to, well, my life. After leaving it for four months, I stumble back into it - strangely unprepared and suffering from an empty shell sensation. I can't explain what my experience was abroad because everything I've learned and seen and shared is so cumulative and so gradual. A highlight reel would not do it justice. On the outside, I am the same. My family and friends still love me the same. I am newly engaged to a wonderful man who I love so much. But the gap remains and I don't know how to embrace it yet. It's as if I never left and the only one that can vouch for me is...me.
I have hundreds of pictures of faces and buildings and landscapes...there must be a way to connect it. I'll sketch it for you. Ignore the eraser marks, the uneasiness of my lines. I know what I want it to look like. I have a picture in my head.
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